Thursday, January 3, 2019

On another point....

When I was having more severe anger issues, before Neudexta, I would spend my nights building in my mind, my concrete house on 10 acres with all sorts of defensive emplacements.  I would fight battles with those who would want to invade my compound.  And I would defeat the aggressors before I could go to sleep.  I have always wanted, longed, dreamed, planned to live a survivalist life.  Of course, it never happened.  But, before Neudexta, and it's calming effect on me, I still tried to cling to that fantasy.  Now I realize that dream is lost.   It is difficult to recognize a dream is lost.  But it is comforting to understand that I now recognize my limitations, caused by LBD.  Reality is harsh, but necessary.

The New DRUG for an OLD problem, works! So far.

Well, it has been 9 days since I started Neudexta and I am now on two pills a day.  I can report that I am much less agitated and angry, especially at night!  I did notice at the end of the one pill a day work up that it helped the most at night, which is when I took the pill.  But now, as of yesterday, I am o n two pills a day, morning and night and the impact seems to last all day.  I am much calmer.  Even my Wife has noticed this and commented on it in our Dementia Support Group her at Azalea Trace.  I have not noticed  ANY side effects.

Now, 9 days is not a conclusive trial, but still, I am very happy with how I feel.  I would not say I feel normal, but I am more calm and have much less violent, angry thoughts and outbursts.  I am having an easier time going to sleep also.

The lessening of the agitation makes my entire body relax.  I will keep you updated as we progress in this latest experiment!