I am not an impartial observer when it comes to my Wife. I love her with all my heart and I detest anything that causes her stress, emotional distress, or depression. We have gone through numerous Navy Deployments, training times, yard periods out of home port, tech assist trips, and other times of forced separation over our almost 45 years of marriage. She has had to deal with a number of surgeries including my colon surgery. But, I have seen my LBD journey cause her more worry, depression, and distress than any other issue we have faced together. Any other challenge we had to face, has an end date! Each challenge always had a "Get Well" ending. Even the removal of half of my colon because of a tumor had a prognosis of good health. But, LBD only has a future of "Bad to Worse"! And, we are now getting into the "Worse" stages of this disease.
I can see the stress in her face, in how she reacts to life, and how she tried to keep herself busy. I know her coping skills and trust me, she is using everyone she has, all the time! There is no help. No support group and no one she chooses to confide in. Instead, my Wife stoically suffers today and our future, on her own. It is just he way.
Me, I am oblivious to the future. LBD is taking away my ability to see any thing in the future. Tomorrow is too far away for me to see or think of. Tomorrow will just have to take care of itself. I am too busy trying to deal with right now.
Just the same, the thing that pains me the most is how my LBD upsets the Lady I love.