We live in a retirement community that has a large population of older folks. Many in very good health, others with serious health issues, and some that deny having serious health issues. But I have watched how different diseases impact married relationships. Some couples draw closer together and find new strength to find a way to live with the disease, closer together, more in love.
Yet, some couples fall apart, loose contact, and are no closer that two people that live in the same town. I see spouses of Dementia patients that protect their spouse and shield them from life. And I see spouses that dump their spouse in Assisted Living and never visit them. The travel, go out, enjoy their new freedom, without the anchor of the Dementia Spouse to ruin their lives. This "Disease Divorce" happens in all debilitating diseases that I see here. So, Dementia is not the only Disease that causes this.
I completely realize I am difficult to live with. That is why I asked the Neurologist to give me a medicine to calm me down and let me sleep at night. And, since my LBD is getting WORSE I, more and more, don't want to be with people. I refuse telephone calls, don't call people I used too, and do not pay attention to the world around me. Many nights, I go to bed angry, depressed, and ready to fight anyone for any reason. Of course, the Clonazapan finally takes hold and I go to sleep.
But soon, hopefully not for another ten months, I will move to the Memory Support Unit in Assisted Living. I wonder how that will work out. Right now, i have difficulties being positive about anything in my life.