Literally, that is a decision I face everyday. I see talk about the number of Veterans that commit suicide everyday. Nobody really cares if the Veterans commit suicide! As a matter of fact and action, the Veteran's Administration is glad we are committing suicide!
Yes, the VA and the Military help Officers. But the common Enlisted Man is a burden to the government and they would much rather we just shut up, and die quietly.
I cannot get any assistance from my Congressman on my VA appeal, even though he is the Chairman of the house Sub-Committee for Veteran's Affairs!! Why, be cause I am not a Flag Officer and he does not care. I am a burden.
But, this post is more than my complaints about how our Government treats us and sees us. It is about the fact that everyday is worse. I cannot see any way out. I cannot make any decisions that will change how my life progresses. So, I am in a hopeless position. Hopeless because I cannot change my status, effect my condition, or do what I want to do. I am in the same status as a child. Dependent on others for everything. Since I was 16, I could get in my car, go somewhere alone, and do something. Even as a married man, I had time to go do things with friends. Shooting competitions, gun shows, boat shows, car shows. No more, and no one to go with.
I am not suicidal, but I an no longer interested in living either. I do not see any joy in life. Only decreasing existence leading to even more debilitating issues. Life offers nothing exciting, enjoyable, or challenging. The only bright point is, at some point I will not know I am in as bad a condition as I am. Now there is a bright spot! Come on Dementia.
I think every Dementia patient deals with this. I believe it would be better if I was with other Dementia patients and with people that accepted me as I am. Instead, people continually tell me I am not sick, the doctor's were wrong, and you are fine. Treatment like that does not encourage me to live. I makes me feel worthless. Te same way the VA makes me feel. I have been a throw away person since I was born. According to the Government I served for 40 years, I still am.