This afternoon, I was able to describe an issue I have been dealing with. First of all, let me say, my Wife has cut down on the politics on television. She also told me, after I made the statements I am about to write, that she had figured out most of this already. So, here goes.
The coverage of politics on the television, a constant droning of someone's opinion and reactions to every breath one of the candidates takes, drives my mind into survival mode. When I am in mental survival mode, I begin to mentally build my survival compound. I do research on the Internet on land, solar cells, refrigerators made for off grid use, bullet resistant window covering, weapons, survival foods, and other related subjects. When I am doing this, I am happy, engaged, busy. I can spend hours on this search. I go to bed building my concrete home in my mind. Then at some point, it hits me like a ton of bricks; "You can't live that way! You're broken, weak, mentally challenged. You hallucinate! And then my dreams are crushed and I am depressed, angry, and ready to give up, totally!
So, if I stay away from politics on television, I do much better. And now, My Wife understands this too.