I have written before about not really fitting in here at Azalea Trace. Today, I was told why! Let me tell you about it.
Every month we have a "Floor Party" where all of us on the first floor of the building we live in, get together, bring snacks, and socialize. It is a good time and we tell sea stories, discuss daily events and tell jokes. Everyone has been very nice and hospitable to us, until today. I was talking to the daughter of a very dear woman who lives on our floor. This woman is in Hospice and is seeing her final days. I was trying to engage the daughter in conversation. She was a Librarian, so I had much to discuss. She lives in Upstate New York, close to where our Son and Daughter in Law lived, so I had things to discuss there. She asked me what I did for a living and I told her about my Navy career. That is when she showed her upper class, "My Daddy is an Officer" attitude! When I told her I went t work for the Navy as a Civil Servant after I retired she said; "That's how you amassed enough money to live here!" She said that looking down her nose as if to say, "how bad it is to have Enlisted Trash living here." I did not let it show, but I was hurt.
Now I know why we have not fit in. There are three other Enlisted Men living here and all of them hide the fact. Me, I am either too proud or too stupid to hid the fact that I was a Master Chief Gunner's Mate. Not to mention the Force Master Chief of the Surface Forces, U.S. Atlantic Fleet. But, none of these Airedale Officers know what a Force Master Chief is! No, I am just enlisted trash!!
I really am getting tired of this stuff and since my social filters are about gone, some day I AM going to explode! But, today, I kept my cool. And yes, I did tell my wife. And then asked her to be cool also.I may have made a mistake believing I could be accepted in "Polite Society". How could I ever think, the upper crust would accept me, an illegitimate child, raise by people that he was not related too, who grew up in a Blue Collar family, and Enlisted Man, who they only see value as a Head Cleaner, who married well, and had to go to Civil Service to make enough money to scrape up the money to live here!!
I have been hurt by people who thought they were better than me, my entire life! It will never end because I will not hide who I am or how I grew up. I am a success story! I could have decided to be a "Victim" like so many people do. But I did not. We are debt free, never late on a bill. Owned 8 homes in out life together. We support my Wife's parents in their old age. I graduated from College with a BA in Human Relations Management, Cum Laude, at 41. I made Master Chief in 14 ½ years! I was the Honor Graduated of Class 9 of the Senior Enlisted Academy. I was promoted to GS 13 and was a Branch Manager of three different branches. Not to mention I was the Branch Head they sent on all the tough assignments like the Persian Gulf. I was the only individual that insisted we send Combat Systems technicians on the USS Cole recovery team, saving $10 million in repairs because we preserved the SPY 1 radar arrays!!
For the most part, I don't like Officers. Most of them have their heads up their asses. They think they know everything, but the truth is, if you give them a screw driver or a Meter Lead, they would put their eye out! Yes, they can fly airplanes, but they can't fix them. Surface Warfare Officer can drive a ship, but the don't know how the systems work. I cannot tell you how many times I have been asked on the sound powered phones when the Gun Mount broke; "Can you give ma a ERT? The Captain wants the know." Give me break, I just told you it was broke. I haven't had 5 seconds to troubleshoot the damn thing! It is a complicated, Electro Hydraulic monster controlled by a Logic Computer. There are thousands of moving parts that move ammo that weighs hundreds of pounds there decks, to a moving gun mount and a moving gun barrel at 20 rounds a minute!! Dumb Ass!
So, I have had my "Class System" immersion for the day! I think I will go shoot myself! I hate Officers and their kids!! Snooty brat!!
She also did not believe I have LBD! I guess she went to medical school also. I really hate Pensacola! It is THE Airedale Officers retirement destination. Admiral Dick Dunleavey, I need your help!