I was thinking, how would you know I am "Spotlighting"? Here is the answer; In a conversation, I am likely to say; Oh, I read that. Or; Yes, I know that. If I am not disagreeing or adding information to the conversation, I am most likely, "Spotlighting" or pretending to be normal.
Before LBD, I could bring up ten other sources on any subject I was interested in and five sources on things I had no interest in. I could debate a person on any topic and hold my own. Now, I mostly agree. Why, because I am just trying to be a part of the world around me. The idea is, I have nothing to add because I am not engaged in the conversation or situation. I am lost! But I don't want you to know.
Now, when I am not "Spotlighting" I am normally either introspective and say very little or very agitated and being very loud, verbose, and foul! Hey, it is the truth and I know it. But, I want everyone else to know it. That way, you will understand us more.