The circumstances of my birth, and the fact that people, alive, with hold facts about my Father and Blood related relatives is a great source of frustration and pain for me. I have blood related brothers and sisters that will not have anything to to with me, even though they have NEVER spoken to me or met me in person.
I know my Mother was pregnant out of wedlock. That makes me a Bastard. I know that. It is not my fault. My birth Father, Donald Andrew Dolence, of Cleveland Ohio and his parents, my Grand Parents paid my Mother $10,000 to go away and never contact them again. never saw any of that money and did not know about it until I was 31 years old. Hell, I never knew my Mother had 3 other children, out of wedlock after me. Yet, she blamed me for; "sucking the calcium out of her body that resulted n her having bad teeth." Her words, not mine.
Look, I was blessed to be raised by Mom and Dad Mills. They did so without compensation and never had legal papers on me until I was 16. They did a magnificent job raising ma and I will be eternally grateful. I was a success because of God and their teaching. But, I would truly love to talk to people actually related to me.
For instance, what health problems did my Father have? After all, he died at 63! I don't want they inheritance, as if the Dolence family has an inheritance. I just want a chance to know them.
Before Lewy Body Dementia, I had a thin=ck skin about this, at least on the outside. It truly has always hurt on the inside. But now, I am raw with emotion about o many things. And this is one of the biggies.
I have a half brother, Donald Andrew Dolence Jr, of Westlake Ohio. If you know him, have him contact me. I tried and failed. It is like I am a pariah or something.
You can see how things now get to me. Or better, how I am now not filtering the things that ALWAYS got to me. Good old Lewy Body strikes again.