I have been dealing with increased depression and apathy for the last few weeks. Things upset me and set me off in a way that causes me concern. Today, while my wife was at BSF, I went to the community Coffee Klatch to talk to some folks. I left that time angry and upset. I truly cannot tell you why, but I am spun up!
And this is happening more and more. Little things upset me and then I dwell on them and get even more angry. I have little desire to be social and times like this reinforce that emotion.
Nothing seems to be right in my life right now. Not that I can put my finger on any specific thing. I am just upset, unhappy, and very angry, at everything and almost everyone. I try diligently to control these negative emotions, holding the in, and trying to be polite and kind to everyone around me. But, I would truly like to punch some of these folks, none specific, in the nose!
I can't tell you what anti-depressants I take, but they obviously are not working!! I do not know what to do. And I really don't have the desire to go through the inquisition a doctor will put me through to get help. So, I am at an impasse.
Oh well, it does not matter as long as I can control myself and appear to be normal. It is hard to see through the fog of LBD. So, I really do not know where I am going anymore.