In Church today, as I was getting ready to act as a server for Communion, I was praying to get my thoughts in line with Communion. Suddenly, it came to me, that I had been using my disease as a crutch in life! More over, I had not gone to the Lord and asked for HIS guidance, and if possible HIS healing!! In fact, I had asked the Lord NOT to heal me.
These were disturbing and sobering thoughts. But true!!
So, right there, right then, privately, with God listening, I asked God to lead me through my journey with LBD and to heal me, if it were his perfect plan. I also confessed my sins and shortcomings in how I dealt with LBD. I asked the Holy Spirit to guide me and keep me from using my disease as a crutch or excuse.
This is a change that I did not see coming. But I welcome it and fully embrace it. Will it change my prognosis? It certainly could! Will it change how I deal with Lewy Body Dementia? Absolutely!!
I confess that I have been trying to navigate this journey on my own. God let me know that today in those quiet moments in front of our fellowship. I will now ignore that gentle nudge. God does speak to us, if we listen. I did. Praise God, from who all blessing fall!