Linda and I have both noticed a drop off in my mental function since the move. We both knew the was a possibility. She hopes it will mitigate itself as I acclimate to the community. I am not as hopeful based on past experience. I have never rebounded from these drop offs.
The last few days, I have actually felt "drunk"! Things look farther away, when we drive, things seem to fly at me, and I am unsteady on my feet. When I got up from my nap today, I was dizzy. This, coupled with my recent breathing issues leads me to believe I may be on a new, lower, level.
No big deal. I know LBD progresses and I have no fantasy that mine will stop progressing. So, I can either accept the progression of get stressed out and more depressed.
One of the issues of the move is there are so many nice, friendly, people living here and I cannot remember their names! It is frustrating. Many of the residents wear name tags, and that helps. I try to wear mine most of the time so the residents know who I am. Most of the residents do not know I have LBD. I guess I a reticent to introduce myself with; "Hi, I'm Don and I have LBD!" It sounds like I am in AA.
So, we will continue to deal, or struggle, with the "new normal". One thing that would help me is; If friends and family would be honest and stop trying to put a sugar coat on how they see me. They MUST see the change in me. So, why not just say, I see you have had a mental change. How are you dealing with that?
I realize I deal with my disease different than others. But, I prefer open, honest discussion, verses stilted deception and misrepresentation. But, I know some folks feel awkward with discussions about my disease.
Again, as I have said before, the purpose of this blog is to openly discuss how I deal with LBD. So, now you know where I am on this change.