Yesterday, while I was home alone, I got involved in a "Day Dream". Everything in this dream was realistic to me. I could see the people and the equipment in my mind, and I was there. I was speaking our loud, not in my "Dream Voice".
I have told you before that I spend the vast majority of my day thinking about m career in the Navy. That time is comfortable and enjoyable for me. I was young, strong, fit, and in charge. I knew what I was doing and even though what I did was dangerous, I had no fear.
Yesterdays "Day Dream" had me reporting to a Cruiser. The day I got aboard, we had a Gunnery exercise and the guns failed to fire. As I started to investigate the reason for this failure. I discovered the Gunner's Mates were failing to do proper Pre-Fire checks. They had not tested the firing circuits as outlined on the Pre-Fire maintenance card. Furthermore, they did not know where the test equipment was that was required to do these checks. I was livid.
In my "Day Dream" I was using "Sailor" talk to get their attention and I was actually walking around the house talking and gesturing. Now, I have dreams that are about my Navy career and that are very involved. But this time, I was fully awake and fully engaged in this "Day Dream".
It does not frighten me. As a matter of fact, I was comfortable and happy as I went about restoring professional discipline to my new division. I actually felt like I was back in uniform and and back in my element!
As my disease progresses, expect more of these episodes. Right now, I come back to "Today"after my "Day Dream". But, I know that these episodes will get longer in length and then, one day, I will not come back to reality. But I know, when this happens, it is a comfortable time for me.