I am a NASCAR fan. I watched a race, a few years ago, that Mark Martin won. In the post race interview, he was in tears. Mark said, I know I may never win another race, so this is so emotional to me!
Today, my son and I went shooting at a new indoor range in Pensacola. It is a "Class A" facility in all aspects. As good as Camp Allen in Norfolk. Just James and I. We had breakfast, went shooting, in a very relaxed atmosphere, and the range personnel were friendly and engaging. It was a good time and I eve shot pretty well. Yes, my vision gives me pro blame. I can no longer see the front and rear sights, and the target. So, I have to line up my front and rear sights and then look at the blur that should be the target. But, I know how to compensate. Maybe I should change to "front sight" shooting.
The Mark Martin story came to mind and I realized this could be the last time I go shooting. I tired easily and we were only on the range for about 90 minutes. When I was an active shooter, I could shoot all day and still be fresh. I remember IDPA matches at Blackwater in North Carolina where I would shoot, moving from one stage to another, all day in the heat. Yes, I was tired at the end of the day, but I could still shoot the night shoot! Today, I came home and took a nap.
The reality of all this is, LBD has robbed me of stamina, strength, and vision. All things necessary to do what I have loved to do, for a long time. Days like today illuminate the losses I have experienced. These days bring all the is negative about LBD to the forefront. Maybe, that is why I seldom do things like this. When I do, I realize where I am in my journey.
Still, I enjoyed my day, My son looked out for me all day, He looks for the signs that am getting tired. When I was younger, and so was he, he would complain if I wanted to leave the range before dark. Now, he takes carer of me. Days like today are important to me. Bonding time with my son. I need to make more of these happen.
Sometimes, it is hard to judge where I am in this journey. On days like today, my position on the map that shows my journey with LBD is very evident.