I know I have written about this a few times, but I admitted tonight that this is getting worse. I told my wife that we must address this with the neurologist. I notice an increase in my anger and agitation as the sun goes down! I can still control this rage, but I am not sure how long that will continue.
I have read about other LBD sufferers and their battle with agitation and rage on the LBDA.org website. Well, mostly, I read about the caregiver's battle with the LBD patient's agitation and rage. I have read about ways to control or mitigate the issues of the patient. Maybe some of those will work for me. But, I am not sure I can get my wife to massage my feet for hours!
When I am in this state, the things that are unresolved and not going the way I want them too become issues and the center of my agitation. For instance, my dislike for the area of Florida I am a prisoner in. I am sure you have seen that is prior posts. Then there are things that have always caused me issues, like TV volumes going up for commercials or bad audio drink a program I want to watch, like football games. Of changes from what I know is my schedule and routine. For instance, "Unforgettable" was not on Sunday night as scheduled!! I was livid!
This issue is becoming more disturbing to me and probably to my wife, but she never let's on. My wife is a tough Navy wife!! I am sorry that I am putting her through this! That is my biggest, most devastating, regret!
So, hopefully my neurologist can help. Otherwise, I am going back to drinking, a lot!!