OK, my memory is no longer a perfect thing. At one time, I had near total recall. But now, not so much. When I was in the Navy, I could remember all the technical data for the MK 42 Gun Mounts. I seldom needed the technical drawings to troubleshoot a malfunction. Now, I can't follow a simple recipe. But today, on the way to Church, my wife informed me that over the Christmas Holiday, I had a measurable downturn in my mental capabilities.
Her declaration surprised me because, up to now, I have always know that I had a shift I'm my mental of physical position. Normally, I tell her and she confirms my statement. This time, I was surprised and really unaware of my degradation.
I guess that is the next step in this journey called LBD. Things changing that I do not realize. It is good that my Wife pays such close attention to my progress. It is also good that she will tell me because sometimes I can be difficult to convey things too! We will definitely convey these changes to my neurologist and psychiatrist during the next visits.
As I observe LBD, first hand, it has become apparent that I am not in control and I am not even informed of what is happening or what is around the corner. I never liked surprises so I find the secretive changes of LBD to be unnerving. But, there is nothing I can do so there is no reason to get upset.
The vision changes were a surprise to me in that I did not know that was a part of LBD. OK, I can't know all the issues related to LBD. But mental changes that I did not see? That is another issue all together. So, as I have done since the beginning, I inform all of you. This is quite a journey into the unknown. I remember President Reagan's letter about his Alzheimer's. He said he was on a journey into the unknown. He was right.