I had the flu of something that quickly turned into bronchitis. It took me over three weeks to shake it and I am still coughing. I was coughing so badly during the height of the illness that I would actually pass out!! I have had that problem before but not to the level it effected me this time. But the real issue is that I just did not have the strength to bounce back this time. I am still weak and I get tired quickly doing just about anything.
I know this is directly related to the effects of the LBD, but t has impacted my mental health. I now question my resilience. Just a few years ago, I considered myself indestructible. I could work through being sick and did, many times. In my mind, I had a store of energy, strength, and fortitude, that enabled me to "Gut" my way through anything. I was talking to an old shipmate, who just passed away 21 December. We reminisced about the time, in Bremerton Washington, that I had too much to drink and a Second Class Cook and I got into an auto crash, he was driving. We hit a telephone pole and I went through the windshield. Chief Mowery made me work the next day!! No sympathy. But, I did not want any, I was tough.
Now, not so much. I just want to sleep or sit and watch TV. I have little or no desire to do anything. Thanks to my wife, I get out, but not of my own choosing.
So, I see the effects of LBD on my mind, body, and psyche. All negative. Am I upset about it. No, not really. But I am past thinking this is "interesting" as I used too. Now, I just find it annoying.