I write a blog about my Navy days that is very important to me and a source of therapy for me. But tonight at a meeting at Church, I realized just how much I wanted my past to live on. I had a wonderful career with the U.S.Navy. The Navy took me from a juvenile delinquent to a leader of men and that transformation and the experiences I had are the sum total of me. I was discussing some of my Navy experiences and I commented on my son's desire to know more about my past and the opposite desires of my grand sons. But someday, when I cannot relate my experiences, they will want to know and I want those experiences there for them. Also, I still have knowledge about leadership and Navy tradition to give back to today's sailors. But, most of all, it makes me feel alive, valuable!
I watched my Father-in-law suffer the terrible effects of Alzheimer's. I watched as he retreated into his Army days, a time he was very comfortable with. I believe I am also experiencing that regression. I am happier, more comfortable, and more engaged when I am talking about my Navy days. My dreams are mostly about my Navy days and my thoughts through the day regress to my Navy days.
I am not complaining, just reporting something I am noticing. I have approached my LBD with a "Trouble Shooters" perspective. I look at changes in my progress as "Interesting". So, this slow but noticeable change is indeed interesting to me.