Thursday, March 3, 2011
Doctors make me angry!
OK, maybe the title should be; Everyone, everything, makes me angry! At least that is where I have been the last number of days, weeks, months, I can't remember. In any case, we went to see my Neurologist yesterday. It was my usual, planned, every four months visit. The same inane questions, the same motor skills test, the same stuff! When I ask questions about my progress, the future, I don't get a straight answer. I realize she is a busy doctor, but those 30 minutes are mine. My insurance and my money paid for them. I should expect reasonable attention and service, right? It may be me, but I get the feeling that every time I go to see her, I have to prove that I am afflicted with this disease that she and another doctor, along with two PHD Psychologists, told me I have and prescribed tons of medicine for. Not to mention that this Neurologist filled out forms and a letter that got me a disability retirement from the Federal Office of Personnel Management, (OPM) and the Social Security Administration, on the first application!.. No lawyers, no appeals, no delays! So why do I have to prove that I am sick every four months!! I am so depressed and upset over this that I am seriously thinking about stopping all of my medications and letting the cards fall where they may. Last month, or the month before, there was a problem with the pharmacy and I was without my Arecept, (actually Razadyne, but most of you don't recognize that name) for four days and my wife and I noticed a decline in my cognitive abilities! So, if I quit taking ALL of them for the next four months, she should have no problem recognizing that I have a problem, that SHE diagnosed! Of course, I will be drooling on my shirt, pissing in my pants, and unable to respond to simple commands! But, maybe that's what she wants. In any case, as I said earlier, I am angry and searching for a way to deal with that anger. Quitting seems to be my only recourse!