Wednesday, November 22, 2017

Happy Thanksgiving!

"Boast Ye NOT of Tomorrow"  Instead, enjoy today and all God has brought you.  Even though we have LBD or another form of Dementia, Life is still a gift from our Heavenly Father.  Thank HIM everyday and especially on Thanksgiving Day.

To all my friends, family, and my friends that read this blog;  Thanks for standing by my side through this journey.  I could not have done this without you!

Friday, November 17, 2017

The severe effects of General Anesthesia on Dementia Patients!

I have a friend here at Azalea Trace that has mid-stage Dementia.  Which one is up for grabs seeing that accurate neurological diagnosis are very difficult to get her in East Lower Alabama!  In any case, he fell and broke three ribs about two weeks ago.  Since then, he fell again and broke a hip, which required surgery.  Naturally the doctors used General Anesthesia.  The General Anesthesia has severely and negatively impacted his Dementia!

There are at least two very good medical level articles on the Levy Body Dementia Association Web Site (LBDA.ORG) that address this issue.

My friend will never return to where he was before the surgery!   I am no doctor, but after visiting him today, it is my opinion he will never get out of bed again.  I am upset for him and for me.

If you have a Dementia or are the caregiver for someone with Dementia, PLEASE read the articles on the site about the impact of General Anesthesia on Dementia patients.  Fore warned is fore armed.

Tuesday, November 14, 2017

Overload Monday

We were busy yesterday.  Too busy!  We each had a doctors appointment with our GP, both at the same place.  They were slow as usual and I got agitated!  The, since we were in the town over from Pensacola, we did some shopping we needed to do and ate lunch.  We came home and an hour later had a scheduled Vet appointment for Zeus, the Winder Dog!  All three medical appointments went as expected.  Then, I had to do my usual Monday laundry in the evening to be ready for Tuesday.

Tuesday will not be much better since my Wife has an appointment for a medical test after her BSF Leaders meeting.  I am preaching at the Skilled Nursing Facility for the Staff Chaplain at 10 AM, so Tuesday will be busy too!

Busy days are difficult for me.  I get agitated and angry over any little thing.  Even riding in the care causes me issues!  Maybe because the illiterate morons that live here can't drive!!

A topic of my GP appointment, among many, was my left shoulder.  The rotator cuff is torn and needs repair.  We have known that for a long time.  But the pain is getting worse and I am loosing mobility in my left arm.  I even have difficulties drying myself after a shower.  BUT, haven surgery under a General Anesthesia is not a good idea for LBD patients.  

LBDA has two new articles on this tops that I found very good and very concerning.  The medical evidence is that General Anesthesia accelerates and advances the impact of Dementia in LBD patients.  My GP know this and told me I have to make a quality of life decision.  In other words, is the pain and immobility more of an issue than the possible loss of cognitive ability!  

I have not come to terms with that yet.  My Wife is against the surgery but she does not want me in pain either.  I will Pray about this and seek God's will.

Friday, November 10, 2017

All the thing I can no longer do....

As the sun goes down, my mind gets trapped an an endless thought process of things I still want to do but can't!  Every night I go through this torture.   The thoughts of unrealized plans, dreams, and adventures, mixed with the mistakes, failures, and dumb decisions I made through my life, torture me.

Actual accomplishments, victories, fun times, never come to mind at night.  Just things I never did or thing I failed at.  Yes, I know it is "Sundowning" but knowing what it is does not help me get through the nightly torture.

Lately, some disorientation has been mixed in with this nightly ordeal, so I am confused about timing of events and where I am in the process.  This disorientation has recently been mixed with thoughts of my future!  Yes, that is strange.  Those thoughts are of how things will be as my LBD journey gets more difficult.  Some of those thoughts are coming to fruition now.  Some I know are a forewarning of my soon to be future.

I have written that the recent downturn has been difficult and that is fully true.  But what is to come, will be even worse.  The neurologist that first diagnosed me never told me about what was to come.  Her view was to let it happen without warning.  My thirst for knowledge and the Internet defeated her plan, which not looks like a good plan, in retrospect.

Wednesday, November 8, 2017

Photos of Zeus, the Wonder Dog!

A friend asked me to post a photo of our new friend, Zeus.  Here he is at the Dog Park and in our Apartment!

Tuesday, November 7, 2017

New member of the house!

If you have read this blog for a while, you know my two miniature poodles passed away due to old age issues between last Thanksgiving, (Cherie) and last March (Marcel).  Two weekends ago we attended the Barktoberfest here in Pensacola and even though we said we would NEVER have another pet, a rescue Chihuahua, who is two years old, stole my heart!  When I held him, he chewed on y beard and kissed me!  He has been with us since then.  He is very quiet for a Chihuahua.  He gets along well with other dogs and everyone!  He is a prize and just what I needed.

He loves to walk and loves the new Bark Park here at Azalea Trace!!  He runs around playing with other dogs and chasing the ball, flying through the wind.  He is a joy to watch and have.

Friday, November 3, 2017

One NEGATIVE Nellie!!

When you live in a retirement community, you have to deal with people of many dispositions.  I always try to be friendly and positive.  Some people, on the other hand, specialize in being negative!  People of that ilk can find NOTHING good about anything!  I encounter an individuals like that numerous times each week.  Some of them are palatable and some of them are REPULSIVE!!   The most repulsive of this ilk rode on the Bus with me today.  That individual complained, pouted, and bitched the entire trip to and from our destination.  That individual's negative attitude set me off for the rest of the day!   This individual know everything, knows more than anyone, and is, in this individuals personal opinion, the only person in the world that matters!!   I have had a screaming headache, been grouchy, and out of sorts since I returned to the community.

If that individual is that dissatisfied with living here, they should move.

I told my wife that if that individual gets on a bus from the community that I was going to ride on, I am getting off!!  We can drive to where ever we want and be away from that individuals constant complaining, carping, and wanting everything their way regardless of how it impacts others!!  As a matter of fact, I may move just to get away from that miserable asshole!!

Having LBD impacts my ability to deal with people of this ilk in a civil manner.  I try, but I pay the price for it in a ruined day!  Mom used to say;  "If you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all!!"  I know one person who need to follow that advice.  I never said anything to that individual and I have not, the many times that person has complained, denigrated, and whined, about everything in the world.  But, one day, my filters will be completely off and then, "POW!! Right in the Kisser!!"  as Jackie Gleason used to say.